I have been preparing for this water fast for a couple of days by eating celery, vegetable broth, and very little of anything else. I am completing a 20 Day water fast, or however many days it takes me to drop about 15-20 pounds. This is my first water fast, but I am used to fasts of sorts. With the specific intention of losing the weight I've recently put on, I am allowing myself simple pleasures such as tea and coffee the first few days so my body doesn't go into shock. My intention is to really complete this fast to the fullest. The reason I am fasting is because I'm tired of counting the calories. I have other things that I need to use my energy for, and if I keep having to think about food and what I can and cannot eat for one more second, I am going to lose my mind. I have a specific goal that is necessary for me to reach, and if I do not reach it, I will miss out on something very important to me. So, that is the overall reason for the fast. it is a true exercise of restraint and willpower for me.
I have several fears regarding obstacles in the fast. One being my girlfriend's family coming to visit next week. I am glad they're not staying with us because her mom is an excellent cook, and is always making snacks, etc. I will have to think of a realllly good excuse to not eat around them, because they already think I'm crazy--if I were to tell them I was fasting, I'd never hear the end of it.
So, thats my first fear. I also have very low blood sugar, so if I start to feel shaky, I have to have a tablespoon of honey or something. I have tried not eating before, and have fainted. I am in an intense power yoga training program at the moment, and dont want to pass out or anything. i'm going to go lightly, but am going to practice yoga this week to calm my mind, and for something to do that takes my mind off of the food.
I spend so much time worrying and thinking, regretting, doubting, analyzing what I put into my body, and I just want a break right now. I'm pretty sure that even chewing gum isn't allowed. I dont want to stir up any appetite by chewing.
I need some extra time for reflecting and meditation. I have other things to consider right now. Its hard to silence the inner critic when everything you eat is criticized by yourself.
Anyhow, so it's the THIRD HOUR of the fast. Going strong. I will be mildly exercising during this fast..... so, jumping rope tonight or something... i'm trying to lose about 3 inches off my hips.
The preparation is over. The time has begun to FAST!
